Today’s chat with the ancestors was a bit of a scolding; a chiding if you will. They’re reminding me that lately I feel like I want to climb out of my own skin; I want to escape from all the stuff in my life – responsibilities, possessions, obligations.
The small figure climbing out if the town in the 10 of Pentacles is facing the blindfolded figure on the 2 of Swords. This suggests she has no clear idea what her next move should be. My ancestors are reminding me that in addition to having a plan, I need to find balance in my life. This is been a recurring theme for the past few months, at a minimum. I think they’re getting a little frustrated with my lack of action in this area.
I think the 5 of Swords is showing me that I sometimes feel trapped in a no win situation but that only remains true if I continue to resist making changes. I keep viewing this as an all or nothing scenario but that isn’t true. If I can make changes in baby steps it should reduce my frustration levels and my need for flight.
While enjoying a cuppa Harney & Sons Malachi McCormick blend, I had a chat with the Morrigan, my divine guide when she’s in the mood, Her message today was pretty simple but effective, “If you want that happy ending, to reach that goal of prosperity and abundance, then you need to do the hard work. Keep seeking ways to improve and move forward, and balance what you need to do with what you want to do.” Perhaps not the most earth-shattering message but still a useful smack upside the head.
How are the ghosts of your past still influencing your life?
Oh brother, this message seems very clear to me. I’m still held fast by the poverty in which my childhood was spent. No matter what my true current financial situation, in my mind I’m poor. This results in acquisitional behaviors. Instead of enjoying and using what I already have I focus my energies on acquiring more. I become afraid that I won’t be able to buy new things so I have to do it while I still have the ability.
I realize that my current situation is very different from my childhood, however it doesn’t stop the anxiety and fear of once again being poor. Whenever something shakes my security tree I go on a buying binge to settle it back down again. I think these are the ghosts from my past that still influence my life. Intellectually, I understand that things are different now but that little match girl inside me responds instinctively. Perhaps “shopping my stuff” will help me enjoy what I already own and satisfy that itch that pushes me to buy more.
So, you think you’re trapped, oppressed and imprisoned by external forces, a victim of circumstances, but is this true? Look deep within and revisit those assumptions. If you wish for Ma’at’s justice then be sure you bear no blame. Are you sure you haven’t contributed to your current negative situation?
If you wish to be free of negative energies and situations currently holding you back then make sure you aren’t participating in the negativity. It’s easy to point fingers at others and say “Wrong!” while ignoring our own wrong behaviors. If you want balance and justice then clean up your own act before going after others.
You demand justice, fairness, impartial judgement but are you sure that’s not what you’re getting? Just because current circumstances do not jibe with your beliefs, values and world view does not necessarily mean they’re wrong. Is it that you truly believe these things are unjust? Did you believe that when they were committed by a different person? Sometimes we accept unfair, unjust behaviors when they are aimed at a cause or person we don’t like (i.e. a “murderer”) but when those same questionable rules and techniques are applied to a person or situation with which we agree, we cry foul. For justice to remain just it must be impartial, it can’t be situational and subject to the whims of public approval.
You see the vision you want to (and can) create in your life but in order to nurture it to fruition, you need to find the balance you currently lack.
Change your current perspective on things by shaking them up. Right now you see the path ahead quite clearly but is that what is truly best for you? Perhaps you’re twisting yourself up in an effort to maintain the status quo but does that nurture your creative nature?
You show a confident, accomplished face to the world but inside you feel like a phony. Why? What would help you feel as though you truly are confident and accomplished? What has thrown you off balance? Only you can do the work to find your equilibrium again.
Change is inevitable but there are ways to maintain your equilibrium during transitions. Even if you stumble, don’t let it stop you from trying again.
Things are well-balanced in your life right now. You have learned how to listen to your inner music and still meet outer expectations and responsibilities. Just remember things change; the wheel turns. Don’t let these changes throw you off course.
You know what you want to manifest in your life; know the dreams you want to become reality. It will require a delicate partnership between you and others in your life as well as between what needs to be done and what you’d like to do. It will take a slow steady walk, not a sprint, to achieve those goals.
It’s time to let go of the need to judge and focus on the darker side of life. Instead, try connecting with the world around you; the wisdom of nature. Listen to the messages being offered to you by the divine.
You may be intelligent, rational and a great communicator but you can also be harsh and judgmental, especially about yourself. Crows are very canny creatures who are quick to learn and smart about their environment but don’t waste time judging. Maybe you should take a page from their handbook and release some of those inner critics that judge so harshly.
You may be a master at what you do but your rational, logical approach to matters can come across as harsh and cold. As the saying goes, judge not lest ye be judged Maybe it’s time to incorporate a more humane, approachable, less buttoned up persona.