Today my ancestors have chosen to remind me that balance is the key to my having it all. It’s the missing piece to the puzzle; the truth I hide from myself.
Of course I know this. It’s another of those truths of which I am well aware and yet continue to ignore. I willfully blind myself to it. Deliberate obtuseness is a long-standing trait of mine. My mother refers to it as being thick and, to be honest, it’s one I inherited from my ancestors. So perhaps this is also a “learn from our mistakes” kind of message.
Now that I’ve been reminded of this truth, what shall I do with it? Time will tell.
Today I wondered what lesson I need to learn? Where should I be focusing my energy? I drew:
I need to learn to balance my energy and focus more effectively; blend what I must do with what I want to do. It would also help if I listened to my institution, trusted my inner voice. The truth is I know what to do and how to do it but I need to listen and trust in my inner wisdom; the self-knowledge woven through my soul.
Which of your inner passions do you need to express?
I need to figure this one out. I could say that the passion I need to express is the one that leaves me off-balance and maybe a little obsessed; the one that leaves no room for anything else. Of course what that might be, I’m not sure.
Perhaps it’s time to explore a relatively new passion in more depth. Or maybe I need to revisit an inner passion that’s been dormant since childhood. The first thing that comes to mind is writing. When I was a child I loved writing – poems, journal entries, short stories. I lost faith in myself but maybe this is a sign to reconnect with my inner author; re-explore my writing skills. Am I strong enough to put myself out there and risk negative feedback? Time will tell.
What are you concealing from others? Is the decision to do so empowering or weakening?
I often conceal aspects of my personality from others. It’s a defense mechanism and way to avoid unnecessary conflicts. I detest pointless arguments so I tend to avoid discussing politics (especially these days), sports etc. Temperance reversed also suggests I hide aspects of my personality from myself because in some calculation methods, Temperance is one of my birth cards. I think I’m more well-rounded and blended than I admit. There are hidden depths to my psyche (despite my glib claim to being as deep as a babbling brook).
The reversed 5 of Wands reinforces the point that hiding elements if who I truly am is a pointless endeavor; an effort in futility. On one hand I may not be as discreet as I like to think. On the other hand, why bother? At this point in my life being true to myself is more important than fitting in, not that I’m usually that successful at it.
What is the state of your creative life? How can you foster it?
My creative life has gone down the sewer, drifted away like an unwanted toy boat. Okay, maybe that’s a bit over the top. However, looking at the image on this card reminds me of the opening scene of It when little Georgie Denbrough chases his toy ship along the sidewalk. It disappears into the sewer and Pennywise appears, snatching Georgie. Could Georgie have avoided Pennywise if he wasn’t so desperate to reacquire his boat? Could I rediscover my creative life if I was willing to explore new ideas & methods; if I didn’t cling to what I knew before? I’m guessing the answer is “Yes”!
Temperance again! Obviously forging a new path blending past pleasures and current obligations is the option for me right now. I’ve known this for some time, but the truth is I need to make sure I carve out time for myself. I need to actually use all of the creative tools at my disposal and not just add to the collection. I need to accept that it’s healthy and beneficial to make time for myself if I want to stay sane.
What do you need to grieve? How might you give yourself the permission you need to do so?
I need to grieve the lack of balance in my life; the loss of freedom and the ability to pursue my interests. There is little equilibrium between obligation and desire; between what I must do and what I want to do. It’s still difficult for me to accept. I know I’m doing the right thing but it’s certainly not my preferred thing.
I just need to move forward and reconnect with people the best way I can. I know I’m on the outside of the flow but that’s not so unusual. So, I need to find different ways to accept support and friendship; to keep connected to others. Facebook would probably be one easy solution but I despise FB so much, that isn’t really an option. I do have the telephone, email, Twitter, Instagram, YouTube and MeWe, but none of these are the same as spending time with friends and loved ones but it’s better than nothing.
I know what will help me grieve and move forward. The challenge now us actually doing it.
Buried deep within is the seed of financial success and physical comfort. To explore and enhance it requires a melding of personal needs and external requirements, of internal motivations and external goals. Accomplishing this may be easier said than done.
The hope and potential for new growth remains hidden. In order to manifest, you need to tend it and nurture it while not losing sight of your other needs.
Forging the various elements of your life and personality may seem overwhelming but remember that even when a seed is sprouting the result are not apparent immediately. Be patient, care for yourself and tend your inner garden and you may reap more than anticipated.
Dipping your toe into new waters can change your perspective on the possibilities and potential around you.
Caution before plunging ahead into something completely different and unexpected is usually a good idea. However, don’t let caution turn into paralysis.
Blending the old and the new, necessity and passion, can provide a more holistic and balanced approach to life. Achieving this balancing requires turning your preconceived notions on their head and seeing things from a different angle.
Blue Rose Tarot Created by Paula Gibby Published by Soul Guidance
The Book says: It is a new dawn for our Fool, who, reborn, emerges from liquid depths, hampered no longer by the mundane veil of the ego. Here is our magnificent butterfly, our magical bird, arising like a phoenix from liquid made into gold by the alchemy of fire and water, heat and cold, spiritual and material – the magical fusion of dreams, hopes and goals.
The Fool greets the new dawn with magnificent wings aglow with new color and with the full beauty of the soul exposed for the first time since before the journey began. The landscape is molten, fresh and new. Elemental. Untraveled. Untraveled because the last half of the Hero’s Journey is through the soul’s inner landscape, where no one else has trod. For each Fool travels along final pathways uniquely created especially for that singular and individual being.
TarotBroad’s Buzz: For some reason the imagery on this card reminds me of a 70s Christmas cartoon, The Year Without a Santa Claus. Two of the characters in it are the Heat Miser and the Snow Miser. Both stubbornly insist that their climate is the best and refuse to acknowledge anything positive about the other’s environs. Eventually they come to appreciate each other and realize that both are necessary and beneficial to the world. That is what I see in this card – the cold and the hot unite to form a beautiful and diverse unity.
In the northeastern USA we also see this as the seasons cycle and change. The snow and chill of winter eventually gives way to the warmth and green of spring. But that does not mean one is better than the other. Without the water from the melting snows we might not have the water needed for the plants to sprout forth. At the same time the melting water can become a torrent and sweep away the weaker, less hardy plants just popping forth. And in the beginning of spring the warmth and light of the sun is a welcome break after the brittle cold of winter. But by the time Summer rolls around the heat can become oppressive and overwhelming, and we eagerly await the cool breezes of autumn.
Temperance reminds us that moderation and the middle path is what helps us survive the extremes life can throw our way. If we can learn to walk the path between these two extremes and not let ourselves become lost on either side, we can find the inner peace and healing offered by Temperance.
Transformational Tarot Created by Arnell Ando Published by Ink Well Publishing ISBN #0-9649386-3-4
The Book says: The blending of opposites. A conscious effort to achieve balance and harmony. In relationships, compromise and a balance of emotion and intellect is needed. Emotions that don’t flow stagnate. Creativity, transformation, alchemy: the mixture of diverse elements in order to create something new. Every part essential to the whole. For example, an engine can not operate correctly if even a small part is missing or broken, it also happens that one thing can upset all other aspects of your life.
TarotBroad’s Buzz: This image reminds me of the goddess of the land pouring her creative and fertile energies onto the land. She is at one with the land, incorporating its strength and is solidness into her being. Her dress looks like the snakeskin has become part of her body. She has incorporated the snake’s ability to shed its useless skin and emerge rejuvenated. The fluid flowing from the urn is more than water, it is the source of life itself. It is what allows the land to transform and bloom; to go from lifeless and barren to bursting with life and energy.
The lady is the source of life and the force of her energy and her love is what guides us to a place of balance and healing, of harmony and unity. She teaches us how to become whole, how to integrate our various parts into a unified being. We are light and dark, passive and aggressive, masculine and feminine, lunar and solar. If we cannot integrate and accept these various parts then we run the risk of cutting off part of ourselves. And one cannot live if one denies part of who we are.