Mansions of the Moon Star

Mansions of the Moon Star

Mansions of the Moon Tarot
ZADOK (dahogue@nctc.net)
Self-Published

The Books say: The principle of self-esteem and confidence, knowledge being given out, principle of courage to be ourselves, opening to the Goddess, hope, a sense of healing and wholeness, especially after emotional storms.

TarotBroad’s Buzz: I love this image. It just brings to mind a sense of healing, purifying ourselves, washing ourselves clean. We can celebrate who we are and accept ourselves. We can gather fluid from the stars and sprinkle ourselves with star matter. As Crosby, Stills & Nash (maybe Young) sang “we are stardust”. This card brings that sentiment vividly to mind. I am able to grasp the star chalice and heal myself. This Star offers the healing power of the Holy Grail. It will make us whole again but we must believe it ourselves and in its power.

I just love how open and vulnerable the central female figure is. She is so focused on herself and her healing that she leaves herself unprotected and unshielded. She no longer needs her protective armor. She is open to the healing energy of the stars and the water and the amethyst. She is a reminder that in order to truly heal ourselves we must also risk coming out of our shell and being vulnerable. Only then can we truly experience the magic and wonder of The Star’s energy.

Celtic Wisdom Dreamer

Celtic Wisdom Dreamer

Celtic Wisdom Tarot
Text by Caitlin Matthews, art by Olivia Raynor
Destiny Books, 1999
ISBN 0-89281-720-8

The Book says: The Dreamer shows the god Noden, aka Iriel Faith (True Seer) and Nuada Airgetlam (Silver-Arm) who had a healing and dream incubation shrine on the banks of the Severn. The two-headed nature of the god represents outward sight of the physical senses and the inward sight of the seer or dreamer. The yew is the Celtic tree to the Otherworld, gateway to the Land of Promise. Its evergreen spines and red berries create the appearance of a tree on fire.
Keywords: Hope, insight, inspiration, healing, unconditional love, optimism, keeping faith, dreams, aspirations, widening horizons, promise and opportunity, a period of calm after storm, recovery.
Reversed: Hopes dashed, doubt, short-sighted outlook, poor health, negative self-image, pessimism, insecurity, self-doubt, lack of trust, swept into a spiral of activity.
Soul Wisdom: What is the important source of refreshment in your own life?

TarotBroad’s Buzz: The image on this card is reminder that The Dreamer (Star) is about healing and renewal. It is about looking back to see where we come from so that we can heal ourselves. If we don’t remember what the roots of our illness are then how can we hope to heal. Sometimes facing the past is the hardest thing to do. We have already survived the earth-shattering Tower and we want to focus on the hope and healing offered by the The Star but is we don’t remember what we learned during that Tower moment.  We don’t incorporate it into our lives and that may limit our ability to heal.

The Dreamer shows that we need to look within and without, behind us and ahead of us in order to fully experience the healing energy of this card and the hope it represents. Hope is more than just closing our eyes to reality and ignoring it. Hope is facing the reality in our lives and still believing that things will work out for the best. In fact in some healers are beginning to realize that if a patient doesn’t have hope, faith and optimism then any treatment may ultimately prove unsuccessful because these things are necessary for us to heal on a spiritual and psychic level.

If we believe we can heal, then we can. There is a phrase (which is almost a cliche) if you can dream it you can achieve it or as the Rocky Horror Picture Show suggests “don’t dream it – be it”.  Both offer similar insight. Dreams are an important part of who we are as humans and if we allow ourselves to appreciate them, our hopes, dreams and optimism can help us reach our goals. Dreams can heal us and make us whole; they can open us up to new possibilities and potential. But we have to be willing to take that chance and open ourselves us to the healing powers of the Dreamer.

Here comes the Sun – Sekhmet!

Dark Goddess Sekhmet

Starting today I am beginning my Dark Goddess labyrinth work with The Sun aka Sekmet. I have to admit to an enduring fondness for The Sun’s energy. Even from my earliest childhood I felt a much stronger connection to the Sun and daylight than I did to the Moon and nighttime. This is ironic considering I am a confirmed night owl but what can I say, I’m nothing if not inconsistent about some things. I have also long felt an affinity for Sekhmet’s energy. She is assertive, aggressive and energetic; roaring out her anger and affection with equal measure. This confident lioness could only be stopped in her destruction by blood colored beer. I gotta love a goddess who can only be slowed down by an alcoholic beverage.

Dark Goddess 3 of Air

To start off our relationship, I asked Sekhmet for a message and she sent me Blue Dakini/3 of Air. This goddess reminds me that in order for something new to bloom, I must excise what is dead and outworn. This is often a difficult process because there are times when what is apparently outdated and work out can carry great sentimental value. Although as I am learning, clinging to the past can often blind us to what promise lies ahead.

The appearance of the Blue Dakini also reminded me of another aspect of The Sun’s energy can be overlooked – the sun’s light is a purifier. It bleaches away stains and destroys bacteria. It’s a powerful source of energy, light and warmth. It is what allows life to exist on Earth. All of these are amazing gifts but they can also have harsher aspects. Too much light or heat can blind or dehydrate. Too much energy can be exhausting. If we destroy all bacteria then we risk killing off the good ones too. So it is clearly a question of balance. The destructive aspects of the Sun are essential and necessary but they certainly should not overshadowing its more beneficent ones. During the journey ahead I’m sure I will find harsh light shed on areas of my life I’ve preferred to avoid and at the same time once I clear away those hidden, shadowy areas I’ll be making room for more creative projects and radiant energy.

Confession is good for the soul

For some reason today, I’ve been pondering the benefits of confession. The other day I posted a blog entry about a shattering revelation I learned. Prior to writing the post I felt sick to my stomach and couldn’t sleep. Once I posted it I felt relieved and better. It was a cathartic experience. It also made me realize why they say confession is good for the soul.

Dark Goddess Devil Tlazolteotl

 

I was raised Roman Catholic so after a certain point confession was expected to be part of the ritual of faith. I hated it! Being forced to attend confession every month just meant I made things up. As a child (and at the time I was between the ages of 10-14) the worst things I did were smart mouth my mother, curse and other assorted venial sins. Most of the times my friends and I would exchange notes before confession so we could beef up our offenses. This entire process defeated the point of confession. We felt no relief or healing from it. It stressed us out because we felt judged and harried to find sins to confess.

Even with friends and family, I have resisted discussing matters that most bothered my spirit. Whether they were things I’ve done or things done to me, I feared that others would negatively judged me. Fear and shame held me prisoner for a long time and allowed a lot of things to fester and become toxic. It’s only in the last year or so that I’ve been able to appreciate the benefits of confession (and forgiveness too for that matter).

Part of my inner labyrinth journey through the Dark Goddess majors has helped in this process. It has allowed me to face some of my fears and acknowledge some of my strengths. This journey has dredged up some issues I’ve tried hard to avoid but which clearly needed to be addressed. Burying them failed. Nothing went away, it just leached into my soul and poisoned me. As traumatic as this latest revelation has proven to be, at least it had the benefit of helping me understand how sharing or confessing can be healing. It allows us to lance the boil; cauterize the wound so that healing can begin.

The parts of my journey where I met Tlazolteotl and Kali proved especially beneficial to this process. Tlazolteotl is the Aztec goddess of corruption and filth as well as forgiveness and purification. The image on the card sums up her energy quite nicely – you must purge before you can purify. That’s what this sharing, confessional moment has allowed me to do. I’ve purged the ugliness and horror of what I learned and as a result I was able to begin healing. Kali, the Dark Goddess Tower, helped me learn that destroying external elements in my life was freeing not terrifying. I resist change with all my might but in this case Kali helped me embrace the fact that the destruction of the image I held of this relative would ultimately prove freeing. I allowed me to release a burden I hadn’t even realized I carried and continue on my journey with a lighter, more healthy spirit.

Dark Goddess Tower Kali

 

If you have any secrets or dark memories that are festering in your life and poisoning your soul find someone to tell. Don’t keep things hidden in the darkness. Bare your soul, dig at those repressed or ignored memories and expose them to the light of day so they can be detoxified. Ironically enough it turns out the Catholics are right – confession is good for the soul. The beauty of it is that you don’t need a priest to hear it and convey Yahweh’s forgiveness in order to benefit.

Inanna Witch of Earth

Karma – Transformational Tarot

Transformational Karma

Transformational Tarot
Created by by Arnell Ando
Published by US Games ISBN:1572815396

The Book says: Karma, fate, destiny . A new cycle of growth and self-awarenss begins. Evolution. A run of luck. The art of timing. Taking responsibility for one’s fate. Learning to go with the flow, realizing there is a reason for everything. An awareness of the laws of change, natural cycles, seasons and all circular patterns. In the reverse this card can mean a bad gamble, a temporary set back. It could denote stagnation or being stuck at a level of awareness with an inability to see things from other’s viewpoints.

TarotBroad’s Buzz: This card shows our connection to the natural order of life’s cycles. We may blithely play and run around in our lives with no conscious awareness of this connection, but we are connected nonetheless. And the labyrinth created by the snake is a simple path to follow, although it may get disorienting. It is not a maze, which leads us down blind paths. It is one way in and out. But in order to come back out we have to go deep within ourselves to find our answers. Karma also shows the interconnectedness between human creations (the sun dial) and nature’s (the snake). One does not need to obliterate the other. They can coexist in a peaceful, colorful pattern. In fact this card suggests that they do coexists whether we realize it or not. And our choice is to either celebrate and enjoy this collaboration, or to ignore and resist it. Personally I think the girl on the swing looks like she’s having fun going with the flow.

“What can I do right now, in this moment that will bring me pleasure and also positively impact my future” – Youth of Swords + 10 of Swords (Tarot of the Masters)

Tarot of the Masters Youth of Swords Tarot of the Masters 10 of Swords

The Youth of Swords holds her sword aloft like a maiden warrior waiting to cut through the deceit and deception that surround her.  She is clear eyed and trusts that her judgment and intellect, guided by the divine, will help her through all challenges.  She has a youth’s simple faith and trust that the world is ultimately a good place and the righteous and just will triumph.  The Youth of Swords still believes there is honor in battle and that war serves a moral purpose.

The 10 of Swords shows a group of garbed figures leaving a room, swords or knives held triumphantly aloft.  A bloody body lies at the foot of an overturned chair.  He has apparently been slain by the victorious crowd.  According to James Ricklef, this image is inspired by The Death of Caesar by Jean Leon Jerome.  Am I Caesar, feeling stabbed in the back and slain?  Or am I a member of the crowd, victorious and determined to overthrow a perceived tyrant?

Actually I think the message of these cards is a bit reversed.  I think what they’re telling me is that in order to achieve what James Ricklef calls “the beginner mind” I need to slay that overly confident, tyrannical side of myself.  I need to leave it behind and let myself reconnect to the simple, child-like openness to possibilities and unlimited potential that surrounds me.  I need to cut away the cynical and allow the hopeful and believing side of my nature to expand and embrace it all.

What can I do right now, in this moment that will bring me pleasure and also positively impact my future – The Close + 10 of Swords (Old Path)

Old Path The Close Old Path 10 of Swords

I got this question from the lovely Sasha Graham (the fabulous Tarot Diva) whose new book 365 Tarot Spreads is due out in May.   I find it interesting that these two cards seem to be different resonances of the same energy.  The Close (or Death) is a card of transformation, endings and beginnings and letting go.  The 10 of Swords offer a similar message – it’s time to lay down the arms and give up the battle.  Once we’ve released the urge to cling to the fight we may find that there are new opportunities opening to us.

On a purely practical level there are things I can’t and won’t release right now (and I’m no assuming I need to do so).  Caring for while in-laws (while sometimes thankless, relentless and frustrating) is non-negotiable.  I get the sense these cards are speaking to me of releasing an outworn and useless mindset, letting go of that damn inner critic that won’t shut up and starting a new way of thinking about myself and this situation.

Sometimes I can be a bit glib about things like this but I truly believe we have the power to create our own fate.  In my core I know that if I only focus on negative aspects of my life that’s the energy I will keep attracting.  If I focus on what I want to bring into my life I can do that as long as I truly believe.  Wishful thinking is real if I believe it’s real.

Sometimes it’s so easy to get caught up in the day to day miseries that drain and exhaust me.  I won’t blow smoke up anyone’s butt (least of all my own) about how crushing and relentless this caregiving stuff can be.  However I refuse to let it crush my spirit.  I want to embrace the learning opportunity this provides even if I would prefer to forego the lesson.

How can I become more in-tune with my body? Tower R + 4 of Cups R (BoS So Below)

BoS So Below Tower BoS So Below 4 of Chalices

The Tower reversed speaks to me on two levels.  According to the LWB, when reversed The Tower symbolizes “trying to avoid something by denial or delay leading to increased turmoil”.  Yeah, that sounds about right.  I’m a world class procrastinator even when I know it’s pointless and self-defeating.  The Tower is telling me that this tactic is pointless and making the situation worse than it needs to be.  It is also reminding me that I am blowing things out of proportion and making this a bigger deal than it needs to be.  Instead of trying to fight off the inevitable I need to find ways to make the changes I know are necessary to achieve this goal.

The 4 of Cups reversed suggests”wallowing in ennui or self-pity”.  Once again a direct hit right on the nose.  I have felt enveloped in ennui lately and the pity party has been never-ending.  It’s not that I don’t have some legitimate reason for the pity party but I’m boring myself.  Whining about it won’t change anything and just exhausts me.

At the same time I need to acknowledge that I have a right to be frustrated and angry about things.  Getting stuck in that frustrating and anger and allowing it to push me into unhealthy behavior is pointless.  All it does is make me feel physically and mentally crappy which just adds to the unhappiness.

I know that I have a strong addiction for sweets and carbs.  I also know that I feel infinitely better when I don’t give in to these cravings.  I have found substitutions that might satisfy these cravings and allow me to feel healthier but I’ve been putting off actually making any of them.  I need to stop making this into a project and just do it.  One thing at a time, one change at a time is all it will take to improve this situation.  It’s time to stop wallowing in the ennui.

How can I better express my creative side? Queen of Swords R + 3 of Pentacles R (BoS So Below)

BoS So Below Queen of Swords BoS So Below 3 of Pentacles

It’s time to retire that bitch!  The Queen of Swords, who has been so much a part of my persona, needs to be retired.  She will always be a part of who I was and who I am but I’d like to give another side a chance for expression and exploration.  The Queen of Swords has served me well and if I ever return to the business world I’m sure we will work together again but for now I need to find a different mode of expression.

The 3 of Pentacles reserved suggests that I need to unleash some of that creative, artistic energy I possess.  It’s not important that whatever I create be of professional caliber or even be really good.  What matters is that I allow myself to play; to simply enjoy the smell of the crayons and the blend of colors.  If I don’t want to draw I can always write something.  If I don’t try I’ll never know if I can do it.  The 3 of Pentacles reminds me I don’t need to be a journeyman at this.  Being a beginner or apprentice is just fine as long as I stay with it.  Once again the message is that the journey is more important than the destination.

So the answer to my question is that the way to better express my creative side is simply to do it.  I don’t need to second-guess myself or be hypercritical.  I can simply enjoy the process of drawing and coloring or writing.  In can put on music and dance and sing to my heart’s content.  No one is watching and if they are so what?

How is confusion manifesting in my life right now? 10 of Swords R + Knave of Chalices R (BoS So Below)

BoS So Below 10 of Swords BoS So Below Knave of Chalices

Looking at these cards two elements stuck out – the bird on the woman’s arm in the 10 of Swords and the reflection on the Knave of Chalices.  My initial response was that I want to soar with the eagles (or at least I think I do) but can’t and I feel like I don’t know myself anymore.  These factors could certainly contribute to confusion.

The 10 of Swords shows a beautiful image of a young woman holding her arm up to a golden bird.  Is she releasing it or calling it?  I’m not sure.  I like to think she’s releasing it; unleashing her ideas and message to the world.  Barbara Moore offers this interpretation of the card when reversed: “Reliving heartache by refusing to let go”.  Considering these two elements perhaps some of the confusion manifesting in my life right now is that I can’t unleash my message.  Hell, I’m not even sure I know my message any more.  My ideas and ability to communicate with others have atrophied to the point that I’m not sure what they are anymore.  It’s hard to develop a message or express ideas while wiping someone’s butt.

The Knave of Chalices peers into her reflection cast in a pool of water.  The reflection is ripply and unclear, almost more illusion than reflection.  Can she be sure what she sees?  That’s how I feel about myself right now.  I have no idea who I am.  My reflection is unclear and indistinct.  I feel like a rather amorphous blob with undefined boundaries.  No wonder I’m confused.

These two cards suggest that the confusion is manifesting because my inability to let go of the past and move on has prevented me from creating a fully formed and articulated new me.  I’m burred and undefined because I haven’t fully let go of Old Debbie and that prevents me from molding a new me.

I can’t say this is very surprising but it does clarify some things.