There’s a lot of battered and broken going on here; desolation and devastation, but at the core hope remains. I think my ancestors are reminding me that no matter how bad things get, how destructive they seem, hope remains.
Maybe there are important lessons that must be learned in the brokenness and devastation. What will be built after the rubble is cleared away will be better, stronger and healthier. There are always people willing to fight the good fight and I can choose to be a fighter or become part of the rubble.
My ancestors seem to be reminding me that in my core I’m an optimist. Despite how ugly and unpleasant things may get, I ultimately believe in the human spirit. I believe people are good. The trick is to remind them of that fact.
So, regular card of the day readings aren’t working for me. So I decided to take a slightly different approach and have a daily chat with my Tarot deck.
I got the idea during Rana George’s session on Lenormand at this year’s Divination Day prior to Readers’ Studio. She said she would never do a one card Lenormand reading because a Lenormand reading is like a sentence requiring a subject, verb and object or like a conversation. It needs more than just one card. So I took that concept and applied it to my daily readings for myself. It helps put me in a different frame of mind.
So I sat down with a cuppa tea, pulled three cards and this is the message I received:
Her message:. “Stop resisting change, moving on to the next phase. You’re fighting too hard to maintain the status quo; defending yourself from imaginary threats. The only demons are in your head and if you look at things clearly you’ll realize they don’t exist. Right now the only thing you need to defend yourself from are your own doubts.”
This question ties in beautifully with yesterday’s. Now that I realize I need to stop undervaluing myself I can consider what I need to celebrate about myself.
Clearly I’m not afraid to look foolish, to take a leap of faith. This was not always the case. It took me a long time to learn to laugh at myself and not take myself so seriously. On the positive side, if I am interested in pursuing something I rarely let fear or self-doubt hold me back. For example, I had no problem returning to college for a master’s in public administration when I was in my forties. I wanted to get the degree so I did it. Having said that, I’m also very comfortable with my skills and knowledge as it pertains to the academic realm. Which brings us to the reversed Ace of Swords.
The reversed Ace of Swords reminds me that I can be too cerebral and get lost in my own head. I have a proclivity towards researching something to death before actively pursuing it. This allows me to bog myself down in so much detail and research that I never actually start anything. I’m very good at studying and a little weak on application.
So, I think these cards are reminding me that I can take a leap of faith; I’m not afraid to start something new. I just have to be careful not to get so lost in my own head researching that I don’t take actual steps to pursuing these new interests.
It’s easy to focus so much on the task at hand that you lose sight of the big picture; you can’t see the direction in which you’re moving. Take a moment to get your bearings before you are so off course you can’t correct it.
Teamwork may be the answer to completing current projects. Creating an environment where everyone’s opinion and input is valued may produce better and more innovative results than trying to outdo each other and racing for the finish line.
You are going in circles, not sure which way is up. Instead of continuing on this exhausting path try taking a break to regroup and relax. Without time to recharge your energy and rejuvenate your body you’ll burn out. You need to prioritize time for yourself too.
You’ve been conserving your resources but that can only take you so far. Your heart is no longer invested in the current situation and wants to move on to seek something different.
You’ve convinced yourself that the status quo is being maintained in your life but it isn’t true. In your heart you realize things have changed and you need to move on but you’re still resistant.
You’re clinging too tightly to the way things used to be; letting fear dictate your behaviors. Trust that your heart will lead you in the right direction and release the past. You may sacrifice some stability but find untold emotional satisfaction in its place.
You’re not seeing the choices available, the paths that lie open to you, because your head is up your ass. Get your head out of there and move!
You think if you avoid choosing and just continue plodding ahead a decision will be made for you. Bullshit! Take charge of your life! Be responsible for your decisions and accept the consequences. Otherwise you’ll never find what you truly seek.
You have no sense of direction or purpose and have been moving forward because a thing in motion stays in motion. Lift up your head and look around you. There are choices to be made, paths to be selected! Become engaged in your own life before it’s too late. Choose yourself!
Clinging to the status quo, refusing to be open to change can mean you’re robbing yourself of the potential for embracing your true self and finding new ideas to explore.
Letting someone steal your ideas, allowing yourself to be disempowered can prevent you from transforming your life into who and what you truly wish it to be.
Transformation and change can be frightening but clinging too tightly to the past, or to current circumstances can ultimately cause more harm than good. It can lead to stagnation and a stultifying existence. There is a beauty in death and transformation. Embrace it rather than trying to escape it.