Lately, I have been feeling rather uninspired and lackluster. Usually, I would write this off as a touch of post Readers’ Studio deflation. After spending so many days with friends and fellow Tarot enthusiasts, returning to the real world causes some culture shock. This year, after the interesting Peter Pan reading we did during George Khoury’s workshop, it feels a bit worse. Perhaps this is because I focused on things I enjoyed as a child, and things I still enjoy as an adult, but which I’ve been ignoring. This was further supported by reading one of SARK’s daily inspirations from her Living Juicy book which reinforced the benefits of play. So I figured I would ask my tried and true tool, the Tarot how I can feel juicier.
What will help me feel juicier, more fun? Knight of Cups
What challenges or supports me? Ace of Pentacles Rx
Of course! Why am I not entirely surprised by this response? Because I am once again asking the Tarot something for which I really already know the answer. I suppose I needed the positive reinforcement. I need to find my heart’s desire and actually do it instead of being a lazy lump.
Sometimes I can get so caught up in adding more stuff to my collections, that I forget to actually use them. I have coloring books, colored pencils, markers, rubber stamps, different types of paper and yet instead of playing with them, I keep scouring online sources for additional materials. My hoarding tendencies are kicking into overdrive. I think this reading is the Universe reminding me that the joy comes from actually playing with my supplies, not merely adding more stuff to the cache.
It is time! Enough energy was spent in the planning stages; now it’s time to move forward, to get this show on the road. The inspiration for this kept you up nights, running through your thoughts like an out of control herd of mustangs. Harness that untamed energy, that wild spirit! Let that creative drive work for you.
She sat alone in the dark trying to connect with her dreams, saddened to realize they were lost. Instead of soaring high supported by exciting ideas and intriguing thoughts, her head was filled with to do lists, meetings and schedules. She was in a position of authority but felt stultified, stagnant. Her spark, her inspiration, her passion for what she did had been doused beneath the mantle of obligation and responsibility.
She crackles with energy but can’t channel it. Her inspiration has flown leaving her feeling at loose ends. She has drive and energy and passion but it’s blocked, stifled, dimmed. It’s as if her pilot light has gone out and she can’t reignite it.
She needs a project, an outlet for her creative fire. Her energy isn’t scattered, just unfocused. Once she finds a way to express her fire, an amazing creative force will be unleashed. Or maybe she needs to get laid?
You’re conserving your resources in order to nurture and harness your creative spirit. Be careful that you don’t hold on too tight or you risk strangling it out if existence.
Your present and past look at each other and realize how each impacted the other and both now shape your future. In order to travel that road, you need to accept how past & present weave your future. Celebrate it, don’t bemoan it.
Sometimes amazing blooms are produced in poor soil. Let stories like A Tree Grows in Brooklyn inspire you and reveal how a resilient and creative spirit can survive and even thrive in impoverished circumstances.
The Blue Rose Page of Wands embodies passion and energy – a young dancer just starting to master her craft but full of the conviction and drive to succeed. I remember being that young, enthusiastic and arrogant. It’s almost as though in order to survive adolescent and early adulthood we need a touch of arrogance because without it the criticisms of others will cause us to shrivel and die. It’s almost amusing to look back at who I was at that age and laugh at my confident assertions that I knew more than my elders. It was that pure essence of fire and confidence, of passion and creativity. My goal was not to make my elders feel threatened or no respected (although that was often an unfortunate side effect) but to shine and dazzle them with my potential, my talent and my drive. Sometimes I was fortunate enough to have a supervisor who understood this and was able to nurture me beyond my arrogance. Other supervisors found me too cocky and found ways to get rid of me. Lessons were learned but that didn’t kill that inner flame.
The Infinite Visions Page of Wands shows a young man riding through the forest with two dogs. In the distance we see a beautiful white hart with a magnificent rack. He stands majestic, unafraid and lovely; the master of his surroundings. The young man has a halo of light around him suggesting that he has a purity of spirit that has not yet been tainted by the world. The question is will he keep that purity and let the hart go free or will his ego dominate and allow his pride to demand he kill this magnificent beast for his own glory? Haven’t we all been there – in a situation where we are forced to choose between our inner desires and knowledge of what is right and impressing our contemporaries and meeting their expectations. We are torn and not sure which option is the right one. Surviving that experience and learning from it is part of the maturation process.
Having drawn this card reversed today, I think one of my challenges is to reconnect with that sense of being inspired. For too long I’ve allowed myself to take a very practical, logical approach to life. That can be very useful and beneficial in many ways but I’ve been neglecting my spiritual needs. I need to feel as though what I do makes a difference in some way; that I’ve been inspired and connected to others. The current situation in my life has left me feeling a bit isolated. I need to find ways to reconnect to that side of myself that felt inspired and magical. I have to see beyond the current day to day tasks and allow my spirit to soar; to nurture my inner flame and tend it carefully so it’s light does not die out. It’s not about the outside world and what it gives me or what I give it. This card is about my giving to myself – not always as easy and one would think.