Today the ancestors are taking the opportunity to remind me that in order to pursue interesting projects or find ways to collaboratively express my creative energies (which they feel is a key to keeping me strong enough to keep moving forward), I need to look in my heart. I need to find ways to reconnect with that little girl who loved to dance and wanted a tutu.
Being strong is very useful but sometimes it means I tolerate intolerable situations because I’m “tough”. As I have often joked, the women in my family are not delicate, china teacups – we’re sturdy, plain mugs able to take the occasional rough patches. What this has also meant is that we often put up with difficult situations far longer than is healthy. Strength and fortitude can become burdens if a situation is endured beyond reason.
I think this message is my ancestors reminding me that being able to take a punch can be useful but that doesn’t mean someone who dreams and dances in a tutu is weak. It’s a different kind of strength Listening to your heart and following its wishes mean believing in yourself and being willing to look foolish or open yourself up emotionally in order to achieve those dreams. Am I strong enough to risk having my dreams laughed at if others feel they’re silly? I like to believe so but I guess time will tell.
This question ties in beautifully with yesterday’s. Now that I realize I need to stop undervaluing myself I can consider what I need to celebrate about myself.
Clearly I’m not afraid to look foolish, to take a leap of faith. This was not always the case. It took me a long time to learn to laugh at myself and not take myself so seriously. On the positive side, if I am interested in pursuing something I rarely let fear or self-doubt hold me back. For example, I had no problem returning to college for a master’s in public administration when I was in my forties. I wanted to get the degree so I did it. Having said that, I’m also very comfortable with my skills and knowledge as it pertains to the academic realm. Which brings us to the reversed Ace of Swords.
The reversed Ace of Swords reminds me that I can be too cerebral and get lost in my own head. I have a proclivity towards researching something to death before actively pursuing it. This allows me to bog myself down in so much detail and research that I never actually start anything. I’m very good at studying and a little weak on application.
So, I think these cards are reminding me that I can take a leap of faith; I’m not afraid to start something new. I just have to be careful not to get so lost in my own head researching that I don’t take actual steps to pursuing these new interests.
How connected are you to your personal power? What gets in the way? How can you best manifest the power that lays within you?
I find this reading fascinating (of course it’s about me so that might be just a tad self-centered). The Queen of Cups suggests that I see my personal power more as potential, a dream than as a reality. I know it’s there but I don’t tap into it or even believe in it. My power is really more wishful thinking.
What prevents it from manifesting is that I don’t believe it can manifest. My realistic, practical side battles with my intuitive, dreamy side. I remember readings a short story many years ago about children who exhibit psychic abilities. To test how reliable they are a government official forces the teacher to tell a levitating child that his skills are impossible; he cannot really be doing this. The child loses faith in his abilities and his desk crashes to the ground never to rise again. I feel like that child. I sense that I have untapped psychic abilities but because I don’t have faith in myself I find it impossible to tap into them.
The Fool is the key. Its message is that I can tap into these powers by believing in myself; having faith in myself. Doing the complete opposite of the child in the story referenced above. Can I do that? I have no idea. What I do know is that I can try. After all, if I don’t have faith in myself how can I expect others to have faith in me?
You are hoping for a new beginning, a new opportunity to change things but you don’t yet have the mastery, knowledge and experience to bring this to fruition. Patience is the key.
Believing in yourself; having faith in your abilities is a wondrous and important component of success but more is usually required for long term success. Learning to harness and focus your creative energies, your divine fire, is necessary too. That’s something only time and experience can offer. So have faith in yourself but do the work needed to acquire the knowledge and experience.
Sometimes mastery and experience can blind us to new paths, ideas and challenges. Every so often we need to jump in with both eyes open and take a risk; to take a deep breath and shout “What the f**k!”.
Are you being The Fool or just a fool in your life right now? Be careful and think about the answer because what goes around, comes around. If what you are sending out is self-serving drivel, then expect the payback to be equally pointless.
You may be afraid to take that leap, start along that path to the unknown, but look at the Dharma Wheel. It looks the same whether upright or reversal. So what may seem like a low point in your life may prove, in hindsight, to be just the opposite. Trust in the journey and your life path.
You may feel as though you have nothing; that everything has been stripped from you. That may be true at this time but it can also mean that you carry less of a burden and can start down a new path unencumbered. You don’t have to drag the weight of past disappointments, others’ expectations or perceived obligations with you. Life is full of cycles and we can’t prevent them only learn how to bend and shift with them.
You are clinging to illusions, to fantasies about yourself and your life. You think you are free and unencumbered but in truth, you are being willfully foolish.
You have finally stopped deluding yourself; that is in your past. You can now move towards your future with hope, faith in yourself and a child-like wonder at what the future might hold.
Things are hidden from you right now; you can’t see the entire picture because shadows obscure important facets of it. Believe in yourself and that you can accomplish what you want and overcome challenges thrown your way but be wary and cautious about what remains unknown.
Rather than moving forward and seeing where the road takes you, you’ve set down roots. Is this the world you desire? Is this what you envisioned your destination to be?
The protective runes and sword have not prevented self-doubt and the influence of others from worming their way into your consciousness. They’re holding you back from changing your world.
You’re digging in your heels and afraid to trust that the journey will take you where you want to to. However, it nay take you where you need to be. Believe that the world, the divine, has a larger plan and let go of the reigns. Your ultimate destination may prove to be more than you ever dreamed.