How are you undervaluing yourself? What can you do in order to get what you deserve?
Hmm, it appears that I don’t appreciate things at which I have some expertise or mastery. I might have mentioned several times in the past that I often view my accomplishments as something easily dismissed as not difficult to achieve. I think that’s the message the reversed King of Wands is giving me – undervaluing my skills equals undervaluing myself. Not appreciating what I’ve accomplished in my life makes it seem as though I don’t count; have little to offer.
The reversed Six of Pentacles shows that although it’s nice to be generous, giving away too much undermines the worth of my skills and gifts. Unfortunately many people associate value with cost; being overly generous with my gifts sends the message to others that my skills are of little value. If I don’t value my gifts and skills, consider them worthy, then how can I expect others to do so?
What is the state of your creative life? How can you foster it?
My creative life has gone down the sewer, drifted away like an unwanted toy boat. Okay, maybe that’s a bit over the top. However, looking at the image on this card reminds me of the opening scene of It when little Georgie Denbrough chases his toy ship along the sidewalk. It disappears into the sewer and Pennywise appears, snatching Georgie. Could Georgie have avoided Pennywise if he wasn’t so desperate to reacquire his boat? Could I rediscover my creative life if I was willing to explore new ideas & methods; if I didn’t cling to what I knew before? I’m guessing the answer is “Yes”!
Temperance again! Obviously forging a new path blending past pleasures and current obligations is the option for me right now. I’ve known this for some time, but the truth is I need to make sure I carve out time for myself. I need to actually use all of the creative tools at my disposal and not just add to the collection. I need to accept that it’s healthy and beneficial to make time for myself if I want to stay sane.
How aware you of all of your different selves? How can you best honor and/or integrate them into your life?
I’m very aware of my different selves. I would say I’m the master of them but that would be quite an overstatement. I can say that I’m comfortably familiar with the ones I know and well aware there may be a few more waiting to be introduced. I’d hate to think that I am now all that I will ever be.
As for integrating them into my life, well, clearly I need to dance to the beat of my own drummer. I have to listen to the music that lives in my heart, creating moves that blend my current selves with any potential future selves. I need to learn to incorporate that which is and that which is becoming. Easy to say, perhaps not so easy to do but I look forward to the challenge.
Which of your creative gifts are lying dormant? How might you awaken them?
All of my creative gifts are dormant right now because I don’t have faith in them; I’m afraid to express them. One of my biggest challenges has always been to recognize my gifts and accomplishments. I fell into the mindset of believing that if I am good at something, gifted with a skill, then it mustn’t be that difficult. I also resist exploring unfamiliar territory. If I don’t think I can do something well the first time, I avoid trying it. This has limited me in a variety of ways and us something I’d like to move beyond.
I think one I’ve the ways I can awaken these dormant, unexplored creative gifts is to take breaks for myself. I recently decided to spend 15-30 minutes everyday in a mini-retreat. I will spend the time journaling or crafting, listening to music and meditating. This will enable me to shake myself loose from current, stifling patterns. I think this will help me reconnect to existing creative gifts and discover new ones.
All roads could lead to you. You could become an expert in your field but first you need to nurture your talents and yourself. You need to live yourself and believe your worth the investment.
You unfocused and not fulfilling your potential right now. Instead of reaping the benefits of your talents, your energy is scattered. Focus and perseverance are the way to manifest the success, abundance and prosperity that have eluded you so far.
Instead of sharing your skills and achievements with the world, you’re hoarding them. Rather than expanding your skill set, you’re limiting you potential. Be proud of what you know and can do; celebrate the arc work that brought you to where you are today! Embrace who you truly are and what you can do and then share it with the world.
You don’t believe you have it in you to make the choices necessary to pursue your dreams, but you’re wrong. The inner strength and fortitude is there just waiting for you to embrace it. Doing this will allow you to explore your dreams and heart’s desire so you can make them come true.
You need to focus and narrow your choices a bit. Even the strongest, most determined person cannot achieve their desires if they are pouring out their energies into too many bowls; diluting their essence too much.
You worry that being perceived as strong and in control will limit you, and it might depending upon the circumstances. However, consider something – do you want to keep swimming upstream in pursuit of dreams that force you to deny who and what you truly are? Embrace your strength; revel in your fierceness because at the end if the day if you can’t be true to yourself then what’s the point?
You see the vision you want to (and can) create in your life but in order to nurture it to fruition, you need to find the balance you currently lack.
Change your current perspective on things by shaking them up. Right now you see the path ahead quite clearly but is that what is truly best for you? Perhaps you’re twisting yourself up in an effort to maintain the status quo but does that nurture your creative nature?
You show a confident, accomplished face to the world but inside you feel like a phony. Why? What would help you feel as though you truly are confident and accomplished? What has thrown you off balance? Only you can do the work to find your equilibrium again.
Look deep within yourself, in those dark places you prefer to avoid, and ask what is motivating your behavior right now? What is driving you on your current path?
You spend a lot of time judging yourself and others. Why? What purpose does it serve? Perhaps the only thing you’re accomplishing by these actions is to smother your creative drive. Maybe it’s time to focus less on judging and more on creating & doing.
You’ve let the negative judgments of others douse your creativity, your passion, your drive. Instead of listening to those critics – both inner and outer, refocus on what excites you, inspires you and ignites your creative juices.
You may not be sure what you’re seeking, where you want to focus your energies, but closing off your heart isn’t helping.
Try combining your creative energies and your heart & soul. Right now you’re treating them as separate; looking in two different directions. Try looking within and consolidating, merging these two facets of your life.
You are frustrated in finding a focus for your creative juices. In your heart you fear you’re not ready to move on to something new, to start a new path in your life. This fear is the only thing holding you back. Trust yourself and unleash that creative force.
You are not listening to the messages the divine is sending you. Instead of trusting your heart, you’re forcing yourself to follow what you perceive as a logical, rational plan but it’s not giving you what you truly desire.
You’re deceiving yourself that listening to the chattering of magpies is actually providing wise advice. Stop cutting yourself off from your soul and reconnect to your heart.
In trying to protect your soft, inner self you are burying your head in the sand and ignoring the reality around you. Realize that listening to your heart and having a gentle nature can be a source of strength not weakness. Feeding on the remains if our victims does not make us strong, it takes us carrion.