My ancestors are being a bit obscure today. I’m not really sure I’m fully grasping their message but this is what I’ve gotten out of it so far.
The only way to fully embrace who I am and what I want to be is to release sense of being entrapped by obligations I didn’t chose. If I want to free myself from the weight and responsibility that weighs me down, I need to change how I perceive them. At the same time, I need to accept that I have chosen to these obligations, even when they prove inconvenient. I need to be careful not get so caught up in my own mind that I trap myself even further. I keep seeing a prison when the only bars that exist are in my mind.
I think this is my ancestors giving me a gentle nudge to remind me that I’m not really trapped, imprisoned. Yes, some of my options are quite limited right now, however, that doesn’t mean that I can’t make choices and engage in activities that will alleviate that sense of oppression. Perhaps it’s also a reminder to focus on the things I have in my life that a good and fulfilling and stop focusing on what I perceive as lacking.
There’s a lot of battered and broken going on here; desolation and devastation, but at the core hope remains. I think my ancestors are reminding me that no matter how bad things get, how destructive they seem, hope remains.
Maybe there are important lessons that must be learned in the brokenness and devastation. What will be built after the rubble is cleared away will be better, stronger and healthier. There are always people willing to fight the good fight and I can choose to be a fighter or become part of the rubble.
My ancestors seem to be reminding me that in my core I’m an optimist. Despite how ugly and unpleasant things may get, I ultimately believe in the human spirit. I believe people are good. The trick is to remind them of that fact.
I think the ancestors are reinforcing their message from yesterday; reminding me that finding ways to sharpen my creative saw will come from my heart and spirit, not my mind. My default mode tends to be overanalyzing and trying to be logical about things but in this situation that would probably prove more obstacle than beneficial. If I try to be rational and logical I risk missing what will make me happy and fall into what makes sense.
The mask on the woman in the 7 of Swords reinforces the idea that I hide behind my intellect. I logic myself into and out of situations and that won’t serve me well here. She even holds the swords against her body as though her intellect can be armor against potential dangers. Instead of trying to cover myself in armor, I need to find my quest, follow my heart (or my bliss, to invoke an overused cliche). I need to open myself up to new possibilities and risk being vulnerable. This is further reinforced by the positions of the cards. The woman in the 7 of Swords is looking away from the other two cards while the Knight of Wands faces the woman on the 10 of Cups and offers her a rose. It’s interesting that the woman on the 7 of Swords wears a dress and shoes that remind me of a dancehall costume and the Knight seems to be using the armor as a shield to hide his more traditional suit. The woman on the 10 of Cups is draped in a diaphanous scarf that barely covers anything. She is exposed, vulnerable and open as well as confident and content. She looks down at the cups with fondness as though the memory of the joy they brought her was worth any sacrifice. She is exposed and vulnerable but doesn’t seem weak or frightened.
Of course, I mistrust being vulnerable and unprotected. In the past, it has proven to be dangerous and detrimental to my well-being. However, I am no longer that person. I think I can face the world without my protective coating and manage to survive, and even thrive upon, whatever is aimed my way.
Today the ancestors are taking the opportunity to remind me that in order to pursue interesting projects or find ways to collaboratively express my creative energies (which they feel is a key to keeping me strong enough to keep moving forward), I need to look in my heart. I need to find ways to reconnect with that little girl who loved to dance and wanted a tutu.
Being strong is very useful but sometimes it means I tolerate intolerable situations because I’m “tough”. As I have often joked, the women in my family are not delicate, china teacups – we’re sturdy, plain mugs able to take the occasional rough patches. What this has also meant is that we often put up with difficult situations far longer than is healthy. Strength and fortitude can become burdens if a situation is endured beyond reason.
I think this message is my ancestors reminding me that being able to take a punch can be useful but that doesn’t mean someone who dreams and dances in a tutu is weak. It’s a different kind of strength Listening to your heart and following its wishes mean believing in yourself and being willing to look foolish or open yourself up emotionally in order to achieve those dreams. Am I strong enough to risk having my dreams laughed at if others feel they’re silly? I like to believe so but I guess time will tell.
My ancestors are a bit more encouraging and less scolding today.
They’re pointing out that overall I have a good life; one of financial stability and comfort. I have an amazing marriage to a supportive man who appreciates my crazy. What I’m lacking is intellectual challenges; academic pursuits. I need puzzles to solve and knowledge to acquire. I need a quest!
Of course the only thing stopping me is me. I let myself get bogged down in overly analyzing things; getting so caught up in planning that I never do anything. It safer that way. If I don’t actually begin, I can’t fail. Of course, then I’ll never be truly satisfied either. Tallyho!
Today’s chat with the ancestors was a bit of a scolding; a chiding if you will. They’re reminding me that lately I feel like I want to climb out of my own skin; I want to escape from all the stuff in my life – responsibilities, possessions, obligations.
The small figure climbing out if the town in the 10 of Pentacles is facing the blindfolded figure on the 2 of Swords. This suggests she has no clear idea what her next move should be. My ancestors are reminding me that in addition to having a plan, I need to find balance in my life. This is been a recurring theme for the past few months, at a minimum. I think they’re getting a little frustrated with my lack of action in this area.
I think the 5 of Swords is showing me that I sometimes feel trapped in a no win situation but that only remains true if I continue to resist making changes. I keep viewing this as an all or nothing scenario but that isn’t true. If I can make changes in baby steps it should reduce my frustration levels and my need for flight.
This is companion reading to the one I posted the other day helping Sam Winchester explore how to make his family more supportive about his desire to go to Stanford. This time I’m helping Dean try to figure out how to handle Sammy’s plan to leave.
My brother, Sammy, wants to go to college and I’m worried. Our family life has been unusual and as a result we’re often in the crosshairs of some pretty nasty things. As long as Sammy stays with us I can watch over and protect him. If he goes to college I’m worried he’ll be vulnerable to attacks by some of the the things we hunt. How can I convince him to stay or at least ensure he’ll be safe?
Thank you for giving me this opportunity to do a reading for you. Please understand that even the best Tarot reading can only provide insight and illumination upon things as they stand right now. Future factors can shift the outcome or change the situation altogether.
Instead of creating specific positions for each card, I’m going to pull three cards and read the message based upon whether they’re upright or reversed, direction, etc. Let see what message the universe wants to offer.
I drew the Ace of Peppermills Rx, 2 of Oysters and 10 of Oysters Rx. I don’t think there is any way you can prevent Sam from pursuing his goal of attending Stanford. He sees this as his opportunity to take charge of his own life and pursue his goals and dreams. You are stuck in the middle trying to balance your desire for Sammy to have what he wants and your need to keep those you love safe and all in one place. No matter what option you chose, someone won’t get what he wants.
The figure in the 2 of Oysters is facing the 10 of Oysters. This suggests that your priority is always going to be keeping your loved ones safe. Trying to do that may stifle them; leave them feeling trapped, suffocated. It also may leave Sammy feeling isolated and left out in the cold. My recommendation is to do what you can to arm Sammy with the tools, skills and knowledge that will keep him safe but don’t try to fence him in. He has to learn Independence and self-reliance. Perhaps you can visit him periodically and check on his he’s doing, without trying to coerce him to do things the way you want.