“Prosperity and abundance appear to be all around. There seems to be new growth and expansion in the world. However, be cautious about celebrating just yet. The true cost of this wealth has not yet been determined. Will what you sow prove beneficial in the long term?”
Over my afternoon cuppa @HarneyTea’s wondrous Viennese Earl Grey blend, I had my chat with the Divine (today it felt rather like Grandma Burke, my paternal grandmother, decided to pay a call). Her message to me:
What I heard, “Enough already! I get it, you’re feeling frustrated and stifled because life right now requires you to focus on being nurturing and somewhat maternal – not your favorite thing. You think your creative juices are drying up from lack of use. I call bullshit! You aren’t looking at things clearly. Open up you damn eyes and see what’s really going on. See how you can change things so your creative energies find expression. Stop waiting for things to change and make it happen! Stop letting self-pity hold you down. You already know the answer so trust your instincts.”
How are you exploring your subconscious? Why might it be a good idea to seek a connection with it?
Ironic that I drew The Empress in response to this; for many years I had quite a hostile relationship with her. Perhaps, like a lot of abused children, in an effort to avoid feeling powerless I identified with the abuser. I think I already had a well-developed Yang personality. Add in the perceived weakness of the women in my life and it was almost inevitable that to feel strong I expressed traditionally masculine attitudes and behaviors. Now, in order to explore my subconscious I need to follow a more Yin, feminine path.
This unfamiliar, to me anyway, path can help me become whole; learn to blend my outer Yang and inner Yin. It will help me heal and become more comfortable, more at home in my own skin. The truth is that I will always be assertive, forceful, quick to express my opinions and somewhat obnoxious. Diplomacy and tact are not really in my repertoire. Soothing the feelings of others rarely occurs to me but I suppose it’s never too late to learn. The first step is to embrace the belief that Yin energy is just as powerful and strong as Yang energy. Maybe it’s time to accept that I don’t need to be so defensive. I can let my guard down a bit (just a bit) and let a select, trusted few within the perimeter.
You’ve been so busy nurturing and caring for others that you’ve burnt yourself out. It’s time to take a break and take care of yourself.
You’ve exhausted all of your energies and have nothing left to give. You’ve tried a variety of options and nothing has produced the desired results. Maybe it’s time to appeal to a higher power, seek assistance from a non-traditional source.
Despite the fact that you have many options to express your creativity and feel productive, you haven’t really done much. Your creative energies have dipped so low that you have nothing left. This would be a good time to treat yourself to some nurturing. Arrange a staycation or an at-home personal retreat for yourself.
All roads could lead to you. You could become an expert in your field but first you need to nurture your talents and yourself. You need to live yourself and believe your worth the investment.
You unfocused and not fulfilling your potential right now. Instead of reaping the benefits of your talents, your energy is scattered. Focus and perseverance are the way to manifest the success, abundance and prosperity that have eluded you so far.
Instead of sharing your skills and achievements with the world, you’re hoarding them. Rather than expanding your skill set, you’re limiting you potential. Be proud of what you know and can do; celebrate the arc work that brought you to where you are today! Embrace who you truly are and what you can do and then share it with the world.
Your creative, nurturing, fecund energy is being ignored in favor of stability and power. This may come back to bite you in the ass.
You have stirred up your creative juices; cooked up a cauldron full of abundant, vibrant stuff. Now it’s time to move forward and discover what you can build with it; how you can share it with the world.
Right now masculine power dynamics and structures are dominant. Losing sight of how essential female power and energy are makes us unhealthy and imbalanced. We need to honor and reconnect with that nurturing, creative wildness.
Sometimes we become possessed by our possessions only to realize they provide no comfort, no succor to a wounded psyche.
We all develop self-soothing techniques, but retail therapy and buying your way to serenity is no longer effective.
What truly makes you feel as though you have it all or are at a place in your life that offers satisfaction and contentment? Today you might want to explore this concept. You might learn that wealth & possessions do not nurture your body & soul. They don’t make you as happy as you’d once hoped.
I ask myself this question a lot. The other day I drew the Ace of Cups Rx and The Empress Rx and they seemed to be addressing this issue for me. I’m one of those people who have loads of advice for everyone – ways to improve their lives, their health, whatever. Unfortunately, I am notorious for not applying such advice to my own life. I can be stubborn and hard-headed, or as my mother likes to call it – thick. I am a relatively intelligent person – or I at least have book smarts and know the answers to a number of Jeopardy questions. Common sense, however, does not appear to be on of my innate skills. Of course, life loves to throw us curve balls and I was finally thrown one that forced me to face a few issues that I’ve been trying to avoid.
I have Type II diabetes and until a few years ago I had it fairly well controlled. Once things got more challenging dealing with my mother-in-law, caring for myself was one of the things that fell by the wayside. Short-sighted and stressed, I chose to live in denial that this behavior would come back to bite me in the ass. Fast forward to July of this year (the day after my 51st birthday, in fact) and my chickens had come home to roost. I visited my doctor and got a call from his office the next day informing me that he wanted to up my medications adding an additional pill for diabetes, Lipitor and a prescription Omega 3 supplement. Now I hate taking more pills than is absolutely necessary but I also don’t want to suffer from complications due to diabetes later in my life. So I bitched and moaned and bitched some more. Then I talked with my hubby and we came up with a plan. I would give myself a specific time period to change my behaviors – eat healthier and exercise more. If there was no improvement at the end of this time then I’d have to start taking the additional pills.
It was difficult at first and I became discouraged and almost gave up a few times but I knew that if I began taking these additional pills I’d be psychologically giving up and I didn’t want to do that. So I hung in there. I’m finally seeing an improvement in my glucose levels and am definitely making healthier food choices. So I’m making progress but this made me wonder why I did this to myself? Why do so many of this do this to ourselves?
We bend over backward to care for others but ignore our own needs. We put off our own needs and try to ignore or avoid the potentially negative repercussions of these choices. Is this something we’re acculturated to accept? Are we programmed to think that our needs come last? I can’t claim to have all the answers but I will say that in my case it was simply a matter of not making myself a priority. I was programmed early on in life to do what was expected of me – to be the good student, the good daughter, the good employee. I craved the positive reinforcement and external validation. It was exhausting.
It took a long time but I think I’m finally reaching a place where my needs count too. They’re not necessarily more important than the needs of loved ones but they are as important. If I don’t take care of myself then I can’t care for them either. It’s a pretty simple concept but one that I traveled a long, winding road to reach. I’m sure I’ll still have days when I backslide but I feel more positive that I’m moving in the right direction.