I found this spread in Sheilaa Hite’s 101 Tarot Spreads by 20 Modern Tarot Masters. It looked intriguing and I decided this was something I needed to focus on this week. So, I shuffled my Wheel of Change Tarot deck, and drew the following cards.
I have to admit, I always love when I get these kinds of readings. The message just seemed so clear to me. The Tower reversed is showing the nature of the storm is that I have already lost one of the most important things in the world to me – my hubby. And now I’m dealing with the aftermath of that loss from a practical perspective, an emotional perspective, every possible perspective. Especially as it pertains to trying to make arrangements for future care of my brother-in-law. This is the mess that I have been left to clean up after my world has fallen down around me. That is the storm which has been consuming my life for the last 2 years.
The 10 of Disks appearing in response to bedrock of support seems both revealing and a bit confusing. From a financial perspective, things will be fine once everything is back on track. My husband always made it a priority to try to ensure that I would be in a solid financial position if something happened to him. However, looking at all the drums on this card, it also shows me that some of the bedrock is not as stable as it might appear. There are people involved in this situation who are beating their drums, promising to help, and in reality they’re creating a lot of sound and fury signifying nothing. The truth is, it’s very easy to pay lip service to something and much more challenging to actually follow through. I do have the support of friends and family, but there is a limit to what they can do. Some of them do not live near me or they have their own responsibilities that need attending. I think some of these extraneous drums refer to some of the people whose job it is to help find a new residence for my brother-in-law. The ones who promise they’re doing everything they can, and yet there’s been absolutely no progress. Interesting.
The Ace of Wands as my shelter from the storm tells me that my creative and spiritual endeavors are what will help me get through this with my sanity intact. I think this reinforces the benefits of my renewed daily spiritual practice as a very healing tool. It also makes me feel a little less guilty about some of the splurging I’ve done recently on art supplies. I might have been indulging in some retail therapy; I might have been preparing myself to explore new artistic endeavors. Time will tell.
And, last but certainly not least, the rainbow after the storm is The High Priestess. I think she’s telling me that everything that I am going through, all of the tools I’m using to help me process & manage my stress, my grief & my frustration, will ultimately leave me with a much better understanding of myself, and a deep inner knowledge of who I am, and who I am becoming.
I found this to be a very positive reading for me. It reinforces that although things are difficult right now, and I will need to beat my own drum more, things will work out for the best. I may need to take some action to clear away the drums that aren’t playing my tune, despite what they claim, but I think I can handle it.