Where am I weakest? 5 of Wands R (Prague)
Where am I strongest? 3 of Wands (Prague)
I am weakest in letting go and picking my battles. Instead of being selective and focusing on which battles are important, I waste energy in futile and pointless struggles. The 5 of Wands has always reminded me of a bunch of school kids engaged in mock battle. Nothing is truly gained or lost but they enjoy tussling with each other. As an adult, I no longer have the energy necessary to expend on these types of energy drains. And yet I continue to do so.
I think the biggest energy drain and futile battle is the one to try to change the reality of my in-laws’ circumstances. No matter how much I wish my mother-in-law would “snap out of it” that’s just not going to happen. I also experienced this futile waste of effort when I kept acting as if I could start a business as a Tarot reader by sheer force of will. The reality is that right now my time is not my own. I don’t have the time or energy to devote to maintaining a website, promoting and marketing myself and actually providing services to clients.
On the positive side, I’m strongest in establishing projects that really take off. Once I am able to channel all that creative energy I have inside, I think I’ll be able to see my ship come in and find success. I think the 3 of Wands is also letting me know that I will find a way to build the partnerships and networks I need to achieve this success.
So my biggest challenge is accepting that sometimes the time is just not right for what I want to do. Timing is everything and right now my energies need to be focused on my in-laws’. I will have the time to focus on my goals, dreams and desires but now is just not the best time. So rather than righting that reality, I might be better served by focus my energies on what I can achieve and using my energies in a more productive fashion.