Oh my goodness – this ties in beautifully with the message I received yesterday. It seems that the biggest challenge I need to face is loving myself. In order to manifest the things I want in life I have to believe I deserve them. In order to believe that I need to love myself.
The woman’s face on the Ace of Cups seems joyful, strong and serene as it is washed by the rain. I love that feeling of lifting my face up to the sky and letting the rain just wash down over me. On a gorgeous Spring day it leaves me feeling refreshed and renewed. That is the energy I need to tap into now. I need to refresh and renew my caring for myself. It’s so easy to put self-care on the back burner when you are caring for others but I have to remember to make myself a priority too. I’ve said it before but never managed to achieve that goal. It’s time to stop the bullshit.
The Magician is an awesome figure; somewhat scary and overwhelming but reassuring too. It looks like a big maw just waiting to devour whatever lies in its path. It hangs above a cave or opening and I must pass through to claim my power. I must face what frightens me and enter the darkness to find what I seek. I’m not sure what scares me more – failing or succeeding.
The bottom line is that if I don’t try I’ll be forever haunted by “what ifs”. I’ve always appreciated the saying “the only regrets I have are for things I haven’t done” and the idea that it’s better to regret things you’ve done than things you didn’t do. I have enough “what ifs” in my life and I want to reduce the number I add to my life moving forward. It’s time to let love for myself refresh me and strengthen me as I enter that dark cave and find the treasure hidden within. I know I can do this.