Oh my goodness – this ties in beautifully with the message I received yesterday.  It seems that the biggest challenge I need to face is loving myself.  In order to manifest the things I want in life I have to believe I deserve them.  In order to believe that I need to love myself.

The woman’s face on the Ace of Cups seems joyful, strong and serene as it is washed by the rain.  I love that feeling of lifting my face up to the sky and letting the rain just wash down over me.  On a gorgeous Spring day it leaves me feeling refreshed and renewed.  That is the energy I need to tap into now.  I need to refresh and renew my caring for myself.  It’s so easy to put self-care on the back burner when you are caring for others but I have to remember to make myself a priority too.  I’ve said it before but never managed to achieve that goal.  It’s time to stop the bullshit.

The Magician is an awesome figure; somewhat scary and overwhelming but reassuring too.  It looks like a big maw just waiting to devour whatever lies in its path.  It hangs above a cave or opening and I must pass through to claim my power.  I must face what frightens me and enter the darkness to find what I seek.  I’m not sure what scares me more – failing or succeeding.

The bottom line is that if I don’t try I’ll be forever haunted by “what ifs”.  I’ve always appreciated the saying “the only regrets I have are for things I haven’t done” and the idea that it’s better to regret things you’ve done than things you didn’t do.  I have enough “what ifs” in my life and I want to reduce the number I add to my life moving forward.  It’s time to let love for myself refresh me and strengthen me as I enter that dark cave and find the treasure hidden within.  I know I can do this.