I’m stuck in a barren, lifeless place; a monotonous and colorless landscape. I feel as though all the juice has been sucked out of my life. I am alone, isolated and dried up. No water or vegetation is visible. Yeah, I think that pretty much sums up how I feel about my life right now. It’s a sun-bleached desert; a beige and barren wasteland. And yet when I look closer there is some life visible. An ant and spider manage to survive in this sere environment. They remind me that there is always a way to survive and perhaps even thrive no matter how empty things may seem.
The Tower just pulses with energy – rage, anger, fury, call it what you want it reaches out of the card and slaps you in the face. Looking at this card I’m reminded of the character Magdalene Sanger in a romance novel called A.K.A. Goddess. Maggi is the latest in a long line of Grail Keepers dedicated to recovering and protecting the various grails that emerge throughout history. At one point in the book she becomes furious about a situation releases a “Melusine scream” – a cry of rage, betrayal and unearthly power. That is what I see when I look at this card. It is the shriek that shatters reality as you know it.
In this case I think this shattered mask offers me a two-folk message. On the one hand this is the Universe or perhaps The Morrigan shrieking at me in a raven’s caw telling me to cut the shit. It’s time to face facts – I know the answer to this question but I’m not fully embracing it. This image is also me. It telling me that when I have decided enough is enough I have the power and ability to shatter the behaviors and attitudes that are preventing me from being as healthy as I can. I can break free of those patterns and change them. All I have to do is decide that I’ve had enough.
If I find myself trapped in a wasteland it’s because that’s all I’m allowing myself to see. If I want to leave that landscape then I need to shatter the false beliefs and lazy habits that have caused me wander her in the first place. It’s fairly simple to understand but not so easy to implement.