Okay, so yesterday during a friend’s reading for me we discussed The Empress quite a bit because she appeared as part of my current situation. This led to my comment about feeling like a bloated tick. Now The Empress appears as my card for today in response to my query. All this damn untapped potential is causing me to feel bloated and rather like a pinata.
As for the answer to my question – I need to allow all this untapped potential to finally express itself; give birth to the new me if you will. I also need to be more gentle and nurturing with it. Creative energy is not something that can be tamed and instructed where to go and what to do. It has an energy and mind of its own. Rather than trying to use a more left-brained, organized, logical approach to things, I need to just go with the flow of this energy; allow it to shape me. That’s a scary thought – giving up a modicum of control over things. Of course I’ve been trying it “my way” and as Dr. Phil might ask “how’s that working for ya?” The answer is that it’s obviously not working. Right now I’m feeling stifled, unenergetic and stuffed.
So I have to take a new, more right-brained approach to things. I know that I am a tactile person. So one step I’ve decided to take is to continue working on my Dedicant Program for ADF with pen and paper. I also need to accept that for the foreseeable future, there won’t be a perfect time and place to do this work. I’ll have to fit it in when I can. It might not be easy but it’s certainly doable and I need to do it before all this blocked energy makes me explode.