This card had a very significant meaning for me today in light of some of my lightning bolt moment/epiphany a few days ago. Several years ago while attending one of Rachel Pollack’s amazing Tarot get-togethers/classes in NYC I pulled this card in answer to a question about how I behave in relationships. It was eye-opening for me because it visually encapsulates how I often feel – defensive and fighting off all comers. There have been times when I’ve described myself in almost mythical terms – as the valkyrie Brunnhilde who was put under in an enchanted sleep by Odin and surrounded by a protective ring of fire so that only a worthy man could make it through and reach her. If the man was willing to take those chances then he was a worth match and mate for Brunnhilde. In my words I have often joked that I could only be with a man who could take a punch because I’m well aware of my proclivity for defensiveness.
Over the last few days I have had some amazing insights into some of my issues. I’ve come to realize that so many things I believed were issues need to be looked at from a new perspective. The 7 of Wands reversed is a reminder that I can let some of my defenses down. Now that I can see some of the patterns that have woven themselves through my life, I don’t need to be so quick to attack. I can be selective and cautious about who I let get close to me but I can let people get close.
Perhaps now all the energy that I’ve used to maintain my protective defenses can be unleash into more creative endeavors. Once I am able to put that staff down, who knows what I can accomplish. Considering how effective I’ve been up to this point at defending and protecting myself, I have to feel that I’ve got a good chance at manifesting my creative energies into something positive and transforming. I’ve been successful at facing adversity and managing to triumph so hopefully I can now channel that energy in a way that will spark my creative juices and allow me move in a more healing and beneficial path.
I realize I’m sort of babbling a bit here. I’m still riding on the high I experienced from my “a-ha” moment and I haven’t quite come down yet. I just know that this revelation is the key to major changes in my life as well as to healing and allowing myself to move forward and focus on my passions and being creative rather than feeling defensive. I can expand rather than contract and that feels amazing. I can forge the future I want and stop worrying about someone or something dangerous breaching my defenses.