I often have a difficult time connecting with the energy of this card. I’m sure it’s connection to my general resistance to anything watery, emotional and “cuppish” in nature. It may also be related to the fact that I’m not a very “lunar” female. I’ve heard many women of my acquaintance discuss how the Moon’s energies influence their lives but I appear to be rather immune to its effects. I could pontificate for hours upon why I think this is the case but it’s fairly irrelevant here. The bottom line is that when I saw this card I blanked. I had no idea what it was trying to tell me.
So I decided to take a “me” approach to the situation and looked up the associations with this card in various tomes of Tarot wisdom. Some were interesting. Some were dramatic. Few felt right. Then I actually looked in the companion books to the decks I am using right now and had a bit of a “click” moment. In the Transformational Tarot’s little white book there was mention of listlessness and depression possibly resulting from ignoring natural cycles and a need to pay attention to my emotional state. Joanna Powell Colbert’s Gaian Tarot companion book also speaks of cycles and how the Moon is faithful to her changes.
Now the Tarot knows that if there is one thing I resist with all my might, it’s change. I am apparently a fairly fixed personality and any change (even ones that have ultimately proven to be for the best) send me screaming from the room. Once again, I can probably discourse for hours about why this is the case but it doesn’t really matter why I became this way. What I need to focus on is how and if I want to change this attitude. Which I suppose is ultimately what the Moon is trying to tell me.
So that is my challenge for today (should I choose to accept it) – focus on how I deal with change, why I resist it so vehemently and how I can improve my relationship with this card and its energies. Good times!