Oh my do I feel like the figure on the Blue Rose 10 of Swords. Taken from a Salvador Dali work, this figure looks as though it is not only being pierce but that pieces are being taken out of her. I know that feeling. There are days when I feel like the Universe is slicing pieces of my skin and there is nothing I can do but bleed. Like the hunched figure on the Infinite Visions 10 of Swords, I feel a sense of impending doom. Even the dog seems to sense his mistress’ distress and despair. What I’m unsure of is whether the doom is for me personally or merely reflecting how I’ve been feeling lately.
The weather also contributed to this sense of gloom and doom I have been having. Between the devastating storms and the lingering gray and gloomy landscape outside my window, it’s been difficult to be positive and cheerful. It’s as though the sword of Damocles dangles overhead and the least movement will bring its sharp point in contact with my head – not a pleasant sensation.
I had to take a break while writing this to clear my thoughts – I was starting to depress myself. While pondering these cards anew I was struck by something; how often have I been the swords in another’s 10 of Swords experience? I am the first to acknowledge that I have a wicked wit and vicious tongue. Comments that I might consider witty and humorous can and often are taken by those at whom they are aimed as daggers stabbing at them. That is often not my intent (although sometimes it is) but I sometimes go for that kind of sharp-tongued repartee that is usually more humorous to those listening than to the one at whom it is aimed.
This card is reminding me that I need to be more judicious in how I apply my wits and tongue to various situations. Mocking others or humiliating them with alleged witty “jokes” is often just mean and not well done of me. Just as I prefer not to be the butt of someone else’s jokes or snide remarks, so most people do not enjoy being the butt of mine. I need to use my wicked wit and vicious tongue for more worthwhile pursuits and try to avoid causing pain to others. I may never achieve perfection in this area but I think it’s worth the effort.