Today I completely understand this card – it’s all about me! Family and friends are focusing on me today rather than me focusing on family matters. It’s my birthday and I insist on feeling as excited about that as I felt about birthdays as a child. It’s a celebration of me, of my life, of my happiness. Yes, that is a very self-centered approach and I think that’s why the card is reversed – the focus is internal on manifesting what I consider a happy birthday rather than a party that would require me to focus on others. And I’m not in that place today.
Seeing this card also made me think of the Simon & Garfunkel song Homeward Bound. They sing about the emptiness and shallowness of the life they’ve been living and how they wish they were homeward bound. I think that’s one of the things I’ve learned over the last year. All the “things” I felt I had to have in my life to make me happy have turned out to be shallow distractions. They are fun and I do not feel they must be discarded but they are not what makes life worth living. Whether I get a specific doll, book or even Tarot deck is ultimately not going to make or break my life. How I treat the people in it and how I deal with challenges and adversity are what is going to determine what kind of life I have. It can be fulfilling and meaningful or shallow and full of pretty things. I’ve come to realize the pretty things are just bandages to cover up the pain of a shallow and meaningless life, at least for me.
It’s also the mom-in-law’s birthday – a piece of irony that has never escaped me. We spent quite a bit of time over there and I think she had a great time. She just likes being around people and she had two of her favorites with her today – her nephew and my mother. There was a lot of laughter and fun. I used the wonderful gift card my sister gave me to order a fabulous cast iron Dutch oven that will be used for baking bread once the weather turns colder (a very Pentacles thing). My mom also got me a lovely bakeware set that is made in USA (always an important factor in my choices but even moreso now) and a lovely herb pot to grow fresh herbs. Hubby got me a lovely new Tarot deck, the Vision Tarot by Dirk Guillabel. It was basically a quiet, fun, family-oriented day and I had a fabulous time.
Today also marks the start of my Hierophant/Temperance and considering both are my birth cards I can’t wait to see what lies ahead. My Emperor/Death year had a lot of upheaval and a lot of building going as, as one might expect. Somehow I get the sense that this year will help me become who I was truly meant to be. I think it’s going to be an interesting journey.